I came across another blogger today through Today’s Christian Woman. Carla put herself out there, letting us in on some issues she’s had lately in The Freedom of Failure. Take the time to read through her post, please… it’ll be easier to then understand mine!
As we walk this journey life does tend to get busy, sometimes even chaotic. We’re so wrapped up in different things we even sometimes don’t realize we’re spinning out of control – not paying attention to our friends, but also to our health. I’ve walked this road a lot in the last several years. I can remember leaving high school thinking, “I’ll be friends with her, and her, and him, and them for years…” It doesn’t always work that way does it?
I’ve fallen in the rut of not calling, not emailing back
I’ve promised time again and again, “I’ll check on how she’s doing soon.”
Then REALITY sets in – – – we learn once we’re together or call or email – – – it’s been
Really – – – it’s been over a year since we’ve been able to sit and chat
A year since we’ve watched the cousin’s play (yes – I’ve even done this with family)
I’m sincerely dragging along, trying to figure out what happened. Praying that I can reconcile any issues that my disconnection with friends/family. Lord, please – give me the wisdom, the words. Let them know that I do care. I mean well. I love them so & don’t know what I’d do if they really were not a part of my life any longer. I sit ashamed.
The sad part is… when I figure out the rut has past the beginning stage
I worry too much then that I’ve lost the connection
Is it lost forever?
Making it even sadder – – –
Goes right down hill with the rut I’ve gotten myself into
God has once again showed me it’s time to slow down; seek what is REALLY important
I agree with Carla:
It seems to me that the only way I can grow up and out of these failings is to name them and start dealing with them with God’s help. Ignoring them certainly hasn’t worked. I need to stop pretending that my charm and good looks will cover my multitudinous sins and instead fess up to the ways I’ve let others down.
I’ve let others down
I haven’t stayed in touch enough
I haven’t made the first move – sent that card I was nudged to send
I get so busy with marriage, children, home, church (not in any particular order)
I once saw somewhere; BUSY = Being Under Satan’s Yoke
Lord, I bring these situations to You;
asking for protection that I don’t become busy.
I lift up each family/friend/acquaintance/even foe
to You Lord for the comfort that someone (You) care about them. Help me to be the friend You want me to be – take the business away – keeping me focused ONLY on what it is You want me to focus on. I’ve turned around and made the calls, sent the replies – but I still don’t feel any better. Your Timing – not mine. I pray for Your forgiveness of my ignorance in not listening to Your direction & for each individuals forgiveness for not letting them be certain of just how important they are to me. Thank You Father for listening, Amen.